Reminding

As my days with my mother is coming to an end,it reminds me that nothing is permanent.

When I came here she was fine but slowly she started detorating and is now almost bed ridden.

Her mind is active but body is not cooperating. Not sure how long she will be in this state.

I was cleaning our house as she was not living there since covid started. She accumulated so many things which doesn’t have any meaning to her now. She is now least bothered about the material accumulated over the years. Her personal things we used to think twice to touch are open for us to see and touch.

What she wants to keep it are now useless for her. And she is not in a state to say if she needs or wants those things.

Man over the years collects or accumulates things and gives too much importance to materials. But at the end nothing matters,just leaving the body.

Hope she gets peace soon and breaks all the human attachments.

Amma no matter where you are, I am a piece from your body. We both will be together till my grave.

Why her

Sitting in the plane,I am trying to divert myself with thoughts i am getting,but I am not able to. There are so many unanswered questions..

Why her?

Does she deserves this pain?

Lost father at very young age

With great difficulty completed her education.

Got married and that marriage was not happy marriage

Worked hard to achieve a very good position at work.

Educated all 3 girls and got them married

Always compromised on her wants and comforts so that daughters have better life.

Lived life on her own terms

But now why?

Fought every challenge and won on her own terms.

Why this last battle be so pain full?

Even this was won but it made her weak.

But the fighter in her,is still fighting.