Value what you have

This week has been a very rough week for me and fans of Rishi Kapoor and Irfan khan. The Two most favorites actors of Indian cinema passed way. Both battled cancer and died. Two days first thing in the morning I read in the news was the death of two versatile actors.

Whenever I hear or read about death, my dad comes in front of me. I recollect all that happened on this day in 1997 as if it happened yesterday. My eyes try to capture him more and more because I feel after today I won’t see him. I have his picture in my shrine which I see everyday but seeing in blood and picture is different. He comes in my dreams very often and the dreams are pleasant. The other day I dreamt that he passed away and was going to see to a mortuary.

I was watching a Rishi Kapoor’s movie in which he says value your father when you have him. I may have not listened to him or maybe I disobeyed him, not sure if I have valued him when he was alive. My greatest regret in my life was not obeying him on that day. He told me to get an auto.

That was the last talk and eye contact i had with him. I should have gone to get the auto,at least he would have been calm as while leaving the house he looked upset,maybe he was not well and wanted to avoid a walk?

I have to learn to value what I have.


Canada lost 1 million jobs in March and USA lost 22 million jobs due to pandemic. 25 million jobs would be lost worldwide due to Covid-19.

The company I work for is thanking my kids for allowing me to work during these difficult days. This should be the other way, I should thank my company for allowing me to work from home.

Many people are losing jobs, the future is uncertain. The government is giving financial assistance because of the job loss but what will happen when the situation becomes normal. Do the people who lost jobs, will get jobs?  What will happen when the financial assistance from the government stops? 

My family is very fortunate. Mine and husband’s job comes under essentials and we both have jobs. The husband’s job is a bit tough but mine got much easier, thanks to DHL for allowing me to work from home. I do miss work at the office but it’s nothing like to be safe at home.   If I go out there are chances that I get infected and I infect my family members.

What this work from home did to me — I have slowed down a lot. My routine is changed now. I don’t have any time set now either for me or kids. I don’t get up at 5.00 am, I don’t do things in a rush, I don’t stuff my mouth with breakfast, I don’t cook more for next day, I am eating fresh, no food from the fridge, I take my tea everyday morning, I don’t skip my exercise…there has been so much change…


And on top of all this DHL is making me smile with this lovely gesture. I am a proud employee of DHL. May this company reach great heights and thanks to top management who run this company.

The day I received this card and gifts, DHL driver came to my house and his smile was infectious. He is on the road delivering couriers with a smile.  When I asked the driver how are you? He replied with a smile saying great and I am on my job delivering gifts to DHL employees kids.

The wording on the card says so much.  We care for you and your family, thanking for working from home, It makes me feel I am wanted and I am a valuable asset to the company, I am a part of supplying essentials to people during this hard days… Thank you, DHL for this lovely gesture. 


Working from home

I thank my company whole heartedly for allowing me to work from home. I am enjoying my time at home. I hardly went out since three weeks. Only time I went out is to throw garbage and stood few minutes on the porch to listen to birds chirping.

And my heart goes for people who has frontline jobs and they are going to work. I pray for them everyday.

Working from home made me realize how much I miss human interaction . I miss small talks with my colleagues who sit next to me. I miss the meal sharing during lunch time. I miss hi and hellos in the washroom. I miss my chair.

Working from home has a lot of benefits.

1. No need of getting up early.

2. Can have tea slowly with parle g biscuits.

3. Can enjoy the shower.

4. No need of hair dryer.

5.Eat hot desi breakfast,not bread and egg.

6.No lunches to school,so no plastic lunch boxes.

7. Eating hot lunch’s ,no microwave to re-heat food.

8.Car not moving from the driveway, no pollution and saving on gas.

9.Lots of family time. Used to play games with kids once a week now seven days a week.

10.No junk food or restaurant food for dinner.



3 years 3 months

It took 3 years and 3 months to come back to my WordPress to write. My last post was when I was in Hyderabad on vacations.

Many times I thought of writing but something or other came up and most of my free time is spent on crochet. That one obsession I am not going to leaving for sure. My kids say amma we will have a crochet museum in our house.

How come I am here now ? From where I took the time out from my busy schedule (sarcasm)?  Actually I am tired of running. Life has became monotonous. Get up 5:30 am, make breakfast and lunch, wake up kids, get ready and rush to work. There too work work…work till exhausted. Then come back home cook dinner, clean and to bed at 9.00 pm. Next day same to same repeat. Then comes Saturday and Sunday. Then too same but a addition of grocery shopping. Life has become monotonous. I was not forced, it was my choice.

I strongly feel Covid came to this world for a reason. It is telling us people slow down. Stop and look around what have you done to this planet. Stop and look around your surroundings. Look around who share this planet with you. Stop and hear the birds chirping.

I am very fortunate to have an option of working home which I started since last few weeks. So most of my evenings I don’t have anything to do. Hopefully I will come back to my blog.

I forgot my password. Then I had to reset it. Once I am here everything seems to new to me. I had to struggle to find out this page.

Today is done, tomorrow I will read my favorite blogs. Good night.



 Concrete Jungle

11 more days for my vacation. I am enjoying every bit of my vacation but I am logging to go back and lie down on my bed in my home there. I am worried about my indoor plants and my friend squirrel.

Here I am meeting my friends whom I didn’t see for more than five to six years. And most of them live quite far from my house. Commuting here is a big draw back in the city. With bad roads and traffic it’s a Herculean task.  Saving grace here is the Ola and Uber. Thanks to ola and uber getting a cab is much easier than buying a chocolate.

Been to few friends houses and it makes me feel sad by seeing the concrete jungle. There is so vegetation, it’s just those high rise Apartments and cannot see any vegetations. Been to a friend’s house which was on 10th floor. I tried to see beyond what my eyes can see for greenery. But I was disappointed, no site of green colour. Sometimes I am really blessed to live in a place where there is no pollution. My kids can play outside without wearing a mask on their noses.Atleast they play outside for six months. Can spot cats,squirrels and birds.

It’s a big chaos on the roads. Metro project is going on now and roads are full of potholes and construction materials. Top of that no one follows traffic rules.

I am enjoying my chaos..

Mixed feelings

I have been away from my home town since last 12 years. And almost every year I used to visit my home town and I lived there for 3 years when I had my babies and some financial issues.

This is the longest period that I didn’t go back home. Yes I call my home town my home even when I am well settled in Canada. That’s where I have my mom,my sisters and my memories.

Today sitting at the airport I have mixed feelings. I planned this trip 90 days back and each day I was trying to make myself believe that yes indeeded I am going home. Until I checked in the airport I didn’t believe that I am going. Now slowly it’s seeping in that yes I am going back home.

Everyday I used to check number of days left for my vacation. I have not taken a vacation since last 4 years.

Have gone through anxiety,happiness,depression and gratitude in the last few days.

Waiting for the moment I step out of the airport and hug my mom and my sister…and my nephew and my b-law.

New year again

For me 1st January is just another day except that I got a holiday on that day. Even at my parents house we never waited till the clock strikes 12:00 to wish everyone happy new year. We slept like every other night on 31st December and wished everyone in the morning.

New year reminds me of addition of one more year to my age.This year I am taking much awaited vacation. I have not taken a vacation since last four years, has been working straight. 

Due to Christmas and holidays work has been very hectic and it’s taking toll on my health. Badly in need of a break.

Last year winter has been very harsh with snow storm and freezing rain. It’s predicted that this year too the same weather continues. So another three months of winter. 

Bye for now and hope you all had a wonderful beginning this year….