Ma

Meri ma.

I want to say much to you but my voice chokes and I get emotional when I speak to you every Saturday and Sunday. I choose to speak to you on weekends because I don’t want any disturbance while talking to you and I want to absorb your voice.

My Saturday and Sundays are so dull when I don’t hear your voice. We may disagree with many things, we argue a lot but my waiting to talk to you starts when I hang up call on a Sunday morning.

I cannot live without talking to you, my biggest regret which I carry till my death is leaving you and Hyderabad. Sometimes I wonder, I never had a reason to leave Hyderabad…

You are a single mom who raised three daughters. You are a fighter. All your life you were fighting and this fight also you will win like your previous fights. You are stronger than you think.

Wait for me amma.

❤️ ❤️ ❤️ 

 

 

 

 

New year again

For me 1st January is just another day except that I got a holiday on that day. Even at my parents house we never waited till the clock strikes 12:00 to wish everyone happy new year. We slept like every other night on 31st December and wished everyone in the morning.

New year reminds me of addition of one more year to my age.This year I am taking much awaited vacation. I have not taken a vacation since last four years, has been working straight. 

Due to Christmas and holidays work has been very hectic and it’s taking toll on my health. Badly in need of a break.

Last year winter has been very harsh with snow storm and freezing rain. It’s predicted that this year too the same weather continues. So another three months of winter. 

Bye for now and hope you all had a wonderful beginning this year….

Day 27 Talk to me

Sometimes I feel you are not spoken to because you are a women. I meant people avoid talking to you because you are a women. I don’t stop myself what I like to do because I am a women.

In my house I am the one who fixes furnitures,taps,lights etc. I don’t stop myself doing it because those jobs are not gender related. My landlord doesn’t like talking to me when it comes to things like fixing something in the house. Husband has a zero knowledge and lack of interest in doing these stuff. When I ask something to my landlord and he says he will talk to R. I am glad he is talking to R but it’s me who needs an answer. R says to me that he didn’t follow what the landlord told him and wants me to talk to him.

Another class friend (school friend for 10 years) of mine comes in this typical mentality that after certain age you are not supposed to talk to your friend who is a girl. I met him on FB after 20 years. I was super excited that I got in touch with him. One day I saw him online and started chatting with him. Online chat you can’t make out if the other person is willingly chatting with you or. After few minutes he sends me a message saying talk to my wife. What? I don’t know her nor he is married when I knew him in school, what i am supposed to talk to her? 

Both these individuals are highly educated. We have gone to Moon but we have not stop differentiating.

Here in Canada both men and women are same. No one raises an eyebrow when a women drives a three ton truck , does the courier deliveries, drives uber or school buses etc…

I have a neighbour here who talks to me more often then to R. I wonder why he didn’t block his mind.