I realized this only after I started working. I was not so confident girl then…used to feel inferior…when I talk to someone I used to think that they are looking at my colour not me.
This stigma is carried by many Indian girls who are dark skinned. We Indians are so obsessed with the colour that by pointing the girl by her colour in fact damaging her self esteem and confidence.
You get to hear cat calls..”kali”,”blacky” etc..
If people want to refer a person they say that black girl..they are ways to recognize a person other than her colour.
The expectant mother is told to eat saffron and apples so that baby girl or boy will be fair. Science has proven it the baby gets the colour of her/his parents not by eating saffron or any other food.
Even at home the girl is called by names..I fail to understand why people want to name her by colour in spite of a given name.
Sometimes I never used to see my face in the mirror and used to cry. My mother used to say dark colour is gods colour and she used to give examples of gods who are dark.
During the play times too kids who are pissed off with you call you by your colour. They are just kids…they learn from their elders and from their surroundings.
Then come the teenage. Teenage is the age when you get those crushes. You hide your crushes because you are scared of rejections because of your colour. You try to find some creams or home remedies to change your colour not knowing that you can never do it.
Then come the marriage market. Your future mlaw is dark skinned, her son is dark skinned but she wants a very fair daughter in law so that she will get a fair skinned grand daughter.
And most of Indians doesn’t know that all Indian who live in west are dark skinned. Here only two types of skin colour, white and dark skinned. All Indians come under dark skinned, period…